Say my Name

Say my Name
By
Patricia Logan
Book one of the “Bound by Love” series

ONLY FOR YOUR REFERENCE!!   MM Erotic Romance. Book contains sexually explicit BDSM scenes and strong language
Author Bio:

International bestselling author Patricia Logan, resides in Los Angeles, California. The author of several #1 bestselling erotic romances in English, Italian, French, and Spanish lives in a small house with a large family. When she’s not writing her next thriller romance, she’s watching her grandchildren grow up way too soon, and raising kids who make her proud every day. One of her favorite tasks is coaxing nose kisses from cats who insist on flopping on her keyboard while she types. Married to a wonderful gentleman for 30 years, she counts herself lucky to be surrounded by people who love her and give her stories to tell every day.
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Blurb:
Dawson Thomas is a rent boy, a young man who goes out hoping to impress a man who’ll pay him to be a submissive for a kinky night together. One night he accompanies a friend to a BDSM club in New York. Raw Hide is a place where men gather to live out their fantasies and Dawson can’t believe his good luck when the owner invites him upstairs to be paid for a night of kink. When others whisper that the man is hideously deformed, calling him “The Monster”, Dawson remembers the cost of his tuition and puts aside his fears, accompanying the bodyguard to the man’s apartment.
Each night, Cole Chambliss paces in his rooms above Raw Hide, watching beautiful submissives give themselves to their Doms, just a few steps down the stairs. Cole longs for days past when he could go out in public… when no one would stare at him in horror. After paying a bitter price when fighting for his country, Cole knows his days of walking among whole men are gone forever... that is until one night he takes a risk that terrifies him. The stunning submissive who’s caught his eye is something extraordinary and Cole decides he must chance everything for one last shot at happiness.
One dark night, one desperate risk, and one horrifying request later, Cole hears the words he’s feared since his return from the war. “Say my name, Sir… please just… say my name…”
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Excerpt 
“Good match you made, boss,” Bull said, walking up to the desk where Cole stood.
Cole sat down heavily, looking up at his huge bodyguard. “I don’t want Zander touching him again and he’s not allowed in the pit,” he hissed. His voice was even more hideous and ragged than usual.
“What? Who? Zander?” Bull asked, perplexed. “You don’t want Zander in the pit again but boss, you said…”
“Dawson, you idiot!” Cole shouted.
“But, Cole, you said you wanted Dawson to play with Zander. I explained to him that you just wanted him to take an interest in the submissive the way you asked me to. I told him you didn’t want to see him hooking up with the wrong Dom and that you wanted to see him be a friend to Dawson.”
Cole nodded, feeling a hard rock in the pit of his stomach. “And, did you tell Zander I’d cover Dawson’s fees?”
“Yeah, boss. Besides, their scene was brilliant. Listen to that applause. You haven’t changed your mind, have you Cole?”
Cole cursed the fact that he hadn’t turned off the speaker as the crowd went crazy for them. He squeezed his eyes shut and laid his head back on the leather headrest on his chair. His brain felt like it would split in two from agony and his stomach was twisting with nausea from just having seen Dawson given pleasure by the other dominant. It was killing him. He opened his eyes and looked miserably over at Bull.
“Just… just tell Zander he’s not to touch the boy again, okay?”
“Sure, boss. Anything you say.” Bull turned to walk away but seemed think better of it as he stopped himself in his tracks and spun back around. “You know, Cole, it wouldn’t be so bad if you told the boy you loved him. I know he’s crazy about you too. You’re just too prideful to see it.”
Fucking bloody friends! Who needs you? “You think I’m proud of these scars? I curse them every day!” He stood so fast, the desk chair spun behind him.
“Oh, I didn’t realize Dawson had seen you,” Bull said. He walked back up to Cole’s desk. “I thought you’d blindfolded him and he’d gotten to know you on the inside.” He pointed at Cole’s chest.
Cole’s mouth dropped open. I have! Cole was suddenly pissed all over again as Bull stood there staring at him smugly. He knew damned well what Bull was trying to imply… that somehow Dawson had fallen in love with Cole in spite of never seeing him, meaning the only way he’d ever learned anything about Cole was by the way he perceived him to be on the inside. Cole had to admit, it was an intelligent argument and one he had dismissed until his friend had mentioned it. He’d never thought it was possible that a man like Dawson could fall in love with him and it bugged him to no end that Bull could read him so easily.
He’d lost all his confidence on a battlefield in Afghanistan. But, Cole had seen the emotions in Dawson as he’d sent him away… the way he’d apologized and sobbed, thinking he had done something wrong, had displeased him in some manner. How selfish you’ve been. You toyed with that sweet submissive, made him fall in love with you, and then cast him off, pushing him into someone else’s arms. You stupid man. He stared at Bull for a few seconds, finally sitting back down in his chair, squeezing his eyes shut in shame, and leaning his head back as he realized what a complete ass he’d been to both Dawson and to Zander. Cole had stayed up in his perch of power and played with the hearts and minds of both men and he despised himself for it. He looked up at Bull who hovered over his desk, looking angry.
“I’ve been a horrible idiot and I’ve treated them both badly.” He hated the way emotions seemed to thicken his already ruined voice.
“You know, Cole. Zander’s a big boy. He’ll get over it in a heartbeat if you were to tell him that you made a mistake and wanted Dawson,” Bull said, his voice quiet.
“But, Dawson—”
“Dawson’s a whole other thing, Cole. I think you know that.”
“He’s in love with me? How is that possible?” Cole was flabbergasted that it could be possible.
“You’re in love with him, that’s evident,” Bull said, “Why is it such a far stretch for you to believe he could love you back?”
“I think that’s obvious,” Cole snapped. His stomach was churning as he stared at Bull.
“You know, for an intelligent man, Cole, sometimes, you cannot see past the nose on your own face. Even without the use of his vision, Dawson saw the man I know you are. He saw a compassionate man who has so much to offer the world.”
Cole blew out a long breath as he frowned. “He would be wrong. Those days are over.”
“Then if you truly believe that about yourself, you’re not the man I once knew,” Bull accused. His face was terrifying at the moment and Cole realized must look like his warrior ancestors at their most fierce. “You’ve closed yourself off from the world for four years, refusing to show yourself to anyone. So what if you have scars or a voice you hate. You are a man I’ve always been proud to call friend… and a fantastic Dom,” he said. Cole was surprised how worked up he seemed to be getting. “Besides that, you’re the only one I could trust myself to come out to, Cole. No one in my family would accept me as I was. You rescued me, Cole. I know your heart. Are you too proud to take a chance on that submissive? If you are, I quit.” He turned away and began to walk toward the door to the apartment as Cole shot out of his chair and ran around the desk.
“What are you saying, Bull? You quit?” His voice rumbled with emotion.
Bull stopped in his tracks and turned. The fury written on his best friend’s face was terrifying in its intensity. “Yeah, you heard me. I’m tired of your whining. Get out and live, Cole… or die here alone. Those are your choices. If you can’t see the man you really are, it’s you who’s wearing the blindfold, you stupid dick.”
Without another word, he stomped out of the apartment, slamming the door behind himself. Cole stared at the door for a few seconds trying his best to comprehend what had happened in the last few minutes. He turned and walked back to the windows where he stared out at the club teeming with every kind of life… a life he’d given up on long before.

Questions for Authors

Is there a message in your novel that you want readers to grasp?

Yes. That there is always more to a person than what we see on the surface. That’s why it is so important to make sure we take the time to see what really drives a person, what means the most to them, and how they think and believe.

Was there an Author who inspired you to write?

Many authors inspired me to write but I’d like to think it was Kathleen E. Woodiwiss who gave me the desire to create love stories so beautifully crafted that they’d cause a reader to feel a deep connection with a character. I love it when my readers tell me that I made them cry or laugh. Then, I know I’ve done a good job.

How did you come up with the characters in your books?

That’s quite easy. Usually, I model them after a person I’ve seen on screen or read in a book. Sometimes, a picture will give me an idea but most often it is when I am in the middle of writing one book and then I introduce a secondary character. If I really like him, he generally becomes a main character in the next book of the series.

What are your current projects?

Currently, I am working on the third book in my Marine Bodyguards series. It’s about a handsome Marine who was wounded, sidelining his career in the military. These days, he is assigned to work guarding a spoiled brat who’s just been kicked out of Oxford for being caught in a scandal and sent home to his wealthy family.

Do you see writing as a career?

Yes, I write full time. I have over 40 published books.

Do you ever picture yourself and one of your heroines?  If so, which one?

Yes. All of them. The only problem is that I am not a tall, dark, handsome, gay hero. I’m a short, fat, straight, grandma. lol

Do you have a favorite heroine/hero from one of your books? If so, who?

Ranger Corrigan from The Thief is one of my favorite heroes, although Cassidy Ryan from Silver Ties runs a close second. Ranger is a former Marine and a snide, smart-assed, down on his luck hero with a heart of gold. He has an amazing sense of humor and is handsome to boot. Cassidy is a hot hunky cop who I describe in Silver Ties, his book, as a blond Malibu Ken doll lookalike. Cassidy has appeared in about 15 of my books, wherever there’s a crime in a book set in L.A. so I use him a lot. He’s sexy, serious, and a complete submissive for his Dom, Zack Teak.

What kind of research do you do for your books?

It really depends on the book. For the BDSM books, I have interviewed Doms, submissives, and gone to BDSM demonstrations. I also used to play with my own Dom for a while. If the book is plain vanilla, as long as there is a story, it will need research, some more than others. The Thief is about art thefts by the Nazis so that required a hell of a lot of research on the Internet to get it right. It was too touchy of a subject not to treat with respect. I also wrote a book about wine-making called A Very Good Year. I spent a week researching everything I could about wine-making and wine-tasting. I also write a lot about the military so I’ve spent a fair amount of time researching various conflicts, weaponry, guns, rifles, bombs, practically anything and everything you can imagine about war. I have a background as a nurse so when I write scenes dealing with medicine or hospitals I can draw a lot from my own life, but I spend a decent amount of time researching treatments and updating myself on hospital protocols.

What is the hardest part of writing your book?

Momentum is both the hardest thing for me to obtain and the hardest to keep once I’m there. If I’m “On” I’m “On” and I can write endlessly but like all authors, sometimes I hit a brick wall where not a single other word will come out. That’s when I have to stop and re-read the story and regain my momentum.

If you could say anything to your readers what would it be?

Thank you so much for choosing my book to read. With so many amazing books out there for you to choose from, the fact that you are reading or have read mine, is an honor I am forever humbled by. My readers are my life blood.

What is your favorite Genre and why?

I read and write primarily MM erotic romance. I love the way I can see two characters and their stories in my head and then bring them together so they begin to tell me their love story. There’s no better genre than that.

Do you prefer to write alone or do you like to collaborate with other authors?

I really prefer to write alone but I have collaborated once before and it went really well. I intend on doing that again because writing with a partner is great fun for authors and it is very motivating knowing that you have to answer to someone.

Do you ever get writer’s block? If so, how do you get through it?

It’s happened a handful of times over my career. Sometimes I force myself to write through it. Sometimes I put the book away for a while and come back to that. I did that last year after writing 25K on a story which I thought was crap. When I revisited it several months later, I found it wasn’t the steaming pile of cow dung I thought it was so I went back and finished it. It is now scheduled to be published this year. Sometimes, I just take a break from writing and read or listen to an audible book or watch my favorite cop or thriller series.

When you are reading a book, who is your favorite author?

That’s a loaded question. I have many many favorites. It depends on the genre so I can’t really say. I’m a voracious reader and if you’ve written a book and published it, there’s a good chance I’ve read it.

Do you come up with the cover or does someone else do it?

I work with fantastic cover artists who are visionaries and I just love what they come up with for me. *shout out to AJ Corza and Jeff Adkins*

If you could change anything in your writing what would that be?

That I could do it faster.

What book if any would you want to be made into a movie?

Of mine, I’d love to see The Thief or Silver Ties get a movie deal. I’ve described my MCs above so you’ll understand why

Who would you want to play the hero/heroine?

Alex O’Loughlin would make a great Ranger Corrigan from The Thief. He’s sooooo handsome.  As far as the lead in Silver Ties, Cassidy Ryan, my hot blond cop… I modeled him after the late Paul Walker. I just adored him.

Everyone uses computers, tablets, phones and no one uses handwritten form or typewriters, what do you prefer to use?

My laptop is the only device I write on.

Is there a ritual you do everything before you begin your book?

Not really. I always begin with a rough outline these days… And copious amounts of coffee.

What do you do when you finish your book and turn it in to the editor?

Sit back and relax whilst I await her edits and feedback. After all, writing a book is like having a baby… only more painful J